Why keep playing with me....
Dear God... stop playing with me.... All I wanted is to have some one who loves me, I love that person and live happily every after.... its such a simple wish why can't you grant me this?
You make me learn what is love about... Both of us were naive to know what is love... been playful of me I choose to let go and thought that love can be tested like a game.. if its strong, it will keep starting over and over again... till the day I realise, he is not going to come back again... For very long I keep having a dream... I dream that we are both standing infront of the reservior that we broke off... I kept making up endings... what if I have hold him tight not letting him go.. will he stay... what if I do this... what if I do that... will that day be different?
You make learn what is be loved....
I thought that with these two knowledge that you have taught me... I know what I should and shouldn't do in my new love that you have sent me... He waited for me for 3years... his wait was painful as he said... this is enough to touch....there is time he cried alone for been unable to be with me.... this is enough to melt any girls heart to say YES!!! when he asked me to be his girlfriend... life was wonderful and happy... he was what I was looking for... the one I wanted to spend my life with... till the day he decided to clip my wings.... and let me fall and fall... without any sign... any warning... nor any red lights in our relationship.... he just wanted to end this relationship that he once fighted hard for... heart was shattered into pieces... I hardly can stand up without my mum's help... I was helpless like a child... it took me great courage to stand up... to understand...
God... you have to send me another angel that encouraged me... his encouragement shows me lights...bring me out of that hole that I keep going into... and I fell for it again... I have no idea how we convince each other- both wounded birds- to pick up this relationship.... things start slow and well... stranglely a new relationship felt like we have been together for very long... through him I finally fulfilled one of my long wish is to have picnic with my loved one... months goes by... pain was forgotten as we fill each other with loved that we slowly learn to give...
But why LORD.... why you have again try to rob this away from me... there is so many things I havent do with him... I wanted to go camping with him... enjoying a bottle of wine at the beach.. have a mini bbq beside the tent... I wanted to let him hold a butterfly in his hand... I wanted to hold his hand and dive down the deep ocean... I have brought a camera... we still havent go for our photography trip.... there is so many things we yet to explore together... and you have to tell me, our time is up.... ............. why.... you have to do this to me again and again.... can you tell me why..... I'm tired... I don't want to start over again...
You make me learn what is love about... Both of us were naive to know what is love... been playful of me I choose to let go and thought that love can be tested like a game.. if its strong, it will keep starting over and over again... till the day I realise, he is not going to come back again... For very long I keep having a dream... I dream that we are both standing infront of the reservior that we broke off... I kept making up endings... what if I have hold him tight not letting him go.. will he stay... what if I do this... what if I do that... will that day be different?
You make learn what is be loved....
I thought that with these two knowledge that you have taught me... I know what I should and shouldn't do in my new love that you have sent me... He waited for me for 3years... his wait was painful as he said... this is enough to touch....there is time he cried alone for been unable to be with me.... this is enough to melt any girls heart to say YES!!! when he asked me to be his girlfriend... life was wonderful and happy... he was what I was looking for... the one I wanted to spend my life with... till the day he decided to clip my wings.... and let me fall and fall... without any sign... any warning... nor any red lights in our relationship.... he just wanted to end this relationship that he once fighted hard for... heart was shattered into pieces... I hardly can stand up without my mum's help... I was helpless like a child... it took me great courage to stand up... to understand...
God... you have to send me another angel that encouraged me... his encouragement shows me lights...bring me out of that hole that I keep going into... and I fell for it again... I have no idea how we convince each other- both wounded birds- to pick up this relationship.... things start slow and well... stranglely a new relationship felt like we have been together for very long... through him I finally fulfilled one of my long wish is to have picnic with my loved one... months goes by... pain was forgotten as we fill each other with loved that we slowly learn to give...
But why LORD.... why you have again try to rob this away from me... there is so many things I havent do with him... I wanted to go camping with him... enjoying a bottle of wine at the beach.. have a mini bbq beside the tent... I wanted to let him hold a butterfly in his hand... I wanted to hold his hand and dive down the deep ocean... I have brought a camera... we still havent go for our photography trip.... there is so many things we yet to explore together... and you have to tell me, our time is up.... ............. why.... you have to do this to me again and again.... can you tell me why..... I'm tired... I don't want to start over again...
posted by sheepz @ 12:42 AM
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